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True Friends is what i want most

9:49 PM
True Friends is what i want most

My tuition teacher and friend gives more concern than my own freaking mother. Did you know that my mum dont care bout me? or just she doesnt show that she cares for me at all!!

"I hate you",

"Why are you even my daughter?",

"I dont want to see your face, irritates me.",

"Who the hell do you think you are to complain to me about Caryn?" (She said this when i told her about Caryn always hitting me for no reason. Before she said that, she beat me for complaining),

"Who say you can eat in my room? (when i am sitting on the floor eating in her room with Caryn who is sitting on HER bed eating. She said that to me only not Caryn)"...

This is only some of what she said to me. What type of mother is this?

Yesterday, I fell down when walking home after my cca. My skin on my knees were scrape off and was bleeding profusely. i was holding alot of things like my school bag, NPCC stuff, My family's dinner and 6 bottles of tea(which my mum wants). It was freaking heavy. When i reached home, my mum came out and i told her i fell. First reaction from her was, "Oh ok... Where's my mee rubus? ah ya.. and change?". I expected a like, "Are you okay?" or something like that but..? Nothing. she act as if it was nothing. Fine. i didn't care. Then i had to clean the wound right? Yes right. But my mum just keep asking me to do this, do that, scold me why the food is spilled, told me to clean the kitchen table after the mess she and my sister made after taking out their food. I didnt had time to clean my wound at all! The blood just flow down my leg and eventually onto my feet, making a blood foot print on the floor where i walk pass without me realising. My mum saw it and you know what did she say? She didnt say anything. She scolded me. and told me to clean the floor! I cleaned the floor. Then my tuition teacher came. Tuition time now. I still have a dirty wound and leg full of blood. What to do? Lucky my tuition teacher is really good.. she told me to clean my leg and she helped me put on the bandage.. She also extended the tuition time to replace the time used to clean my wound..:D This just shows how much my mum hates me.

Today, just just now, I was beaten by my mum. For no apparent/reasonable reason. She scolded me for eating in her room, when Caryn was also in the room. Caryn got to stay in the room and continue eating. I had to go out to the dining table where there is completely no one. Cause everyone is in her room eating or watching tv. Then, She suddenly scream my name. I went in and she said that there is food dropped by me on the floor where i sat a while ago. I looked at the floor and saw nothing. I told her there's nothing on the floor and she got angry. Saying that i am "rebelling" and "being rude" for "confronting her", She got up and beat the hell out of me. She just kept pulling my hair and hitting my head/face. I cant do anything. Just sit there and get beaten. What does this show? I am nothing to her. not even a little respect from her. Everything i do is wrong. Every single thing i do is offending her. She is just trying to find fault with me. Every single little thing i do, she will find something to beat me or scold me. Or even nothing at all!! What type of mother is this?

7:34 PM
True Friends is what i want most

To: My AWESOME Dajie,

I <3 you DAJIE!!!! hahas..:D you give the best advises:D actually u r the only one that care enough to give me advise..:D Ur the best, the AWESOME-MOST!!!!! I am super SUPER DUPER glad, happy, lucky, to meet you and have u as my friend:D hahas..:D people usually say you just made my day.. but with that AWESOME letter of urs and whatever u did in the past, you just made my life brighter.. its brighter than the sun now!!!! hahas..:D Oh god.. Thank you so so so so so so so so so so MUCH!!!!! <3 you always:D p.s. I will make u a cert too!! (^-^)

Ur Best Friend forever,

Apple:D Carmen..:D

10:14 PM
True Friends is what i want most